Around this time next week I'll be moving out of my old house and into a new one, and I truthfully couldn't be anymore excited to start over. About a year ago my house went up for sale and I'm sure some of you can recall the negative toll it took on not only my mind, but also my body. I became someone I never wanted to be. I feel like I turned into that type of person because I just really wasn't ready to pick up my things and leave. It was the beginning of college and I just felt very unbalanced in a lot of aspects of my life. My home was one of the only things that held some sort of consistency, and I really couldn't bare to see it slip out of my fingers. Now things are completely different and I feel absolutely blessed that I've been given the opportunities I have. I'm going to be moving to Hampton Bays and I really couldn't be anymore happy about it. It's insane to me that I'll be living a short bike ride from the ocean; something I've always dreamt of having. For those of you who know me, you know that a positive change like this means absolutely everything to me. It feels incredibly refreshing to finally have a change happen in my life that I'm actually looking forward to. It definitely makes me sad to leave my home, but I feel that I have everything and everyone I need to make this one of the better alterations in my life. The house I'm still currently living in was my Mom's parents' house, which was then eventually sold to her. It's upsetting that the house is getting sold out of the family, that's really the only downfall I can think of off the top of my head. I can't really find pure enough words to thank the people who made living here what it was. I'll really never forget what living where I did meant to me. I met my greatest friends and the love of my life all because of where my parents decided to raise their family. It's amazing to me that if I had grown up somewhere else my life would be entirely different in possibly every facet. I'm definitely considered a homebody, so it means a lot to me that I'm moving somewhere still on Long Island. I know that it's still nearby, but it's definitely not local. I feel that I'll see who my truest friends are after I move mostly because I'll be able to see who is willing to maintain the friendship when I'm not living 10 minutes away anymore. It's going to be so rejuvenating to get a new job, meet new people, and basically begin a new chapter. I know that this move will do wonders for my life.
Last summer I did a great amount of blogging and spent a lot of time making sure to document what was happening in my life. I wish I still had time to do the same thing this summer but things have just been so crazy between packing up 19 years of life and exploring and all the moments in between. These past few months have been great and I've really been pushing myself to be a more positive person. I always try my best to be the happy, uplifting person that a lot of person imagine me to be but sometimes it's difficult to live up to that category. I learned from a young age that I formed this mold for myself, and because I was always so outgoing and hyper I felt that I always had to fill in that mold. I didn't really understand that I can have more than one mold and that my identity can be whatever I want it to be and not what others expect of me. It's mind boggling to me that I can be anyone I want to be anywhere I want. Last summer I seemed to open up my mind more to the idea of love and positivity, and this summer I've taken more of a route towards becoming more aware of choosing my own destiny. You can't really choose where you're from, but you can most definitely choose where you go. The idea of that is just absolutely beautiful and eyeopening to me.
I definitely urge everyone who's reading this to become as self aware as possible, meaning understanding your own desires, feelings, and characteristics. I'm a huge advocate of listening to your body and understanding what it's saying to you. Self awareness and keeping a knowledge of your consciousness is something I find to be absolutely crucial in making peace with not only yourself, but also you're surroundings. I believe that I'm a better person for becoming more self aware.
Before I go, I wanted to share on here some of my absolute favorite bands and songs because I've never gotten the chance to add that in in the past! Last month I saw Coldplay at Metlife Stadium in New Jersey and it was HANDS DOWN one of the most wonderful nights of my entire life. They're definitely my favorite band in the absolute world and seeing them honestly changed my life. So here ya go, here are some of my favorite summer jams!!!
- Phantom Planet - California
- The Decemberists - O Valencia!
- Portugal. The Man - Purple Yellow Red and Blue
- Portugal. The Man - People Say
- Simon and Garfunkel - April Come She Will
- Coldplay - God Put A Smile Upon Your Face
- Coldplay - Green Eyes
- Edward Sharpe & The Magnetic Zeroes - 40 Day Dream
- MGMT - Weekend Wars
- Jack Johnson - Flake
- The Beatles - Hey Jude
- Paul McCartney - Here, There, and Everywhere
- Death Cab for Cutie - Grapevine Fires
- Red Hot Chili Peppers - Around The World
- Smashing Pumpkins - Cherub Rock
- Smashing Pumpkins - Disarm
- The Postal Service - The District Sleeps Alone Tonight
- Alt-J - Every Other Freckle
- Dan Auerbach - Goin' Home
- Red Hot Chili Peppers - Hard To Concentrate
- Midnight City - M83
- Mac DeMarco - Go Easy
- The Kooks - She Moves In Her Own Way
- Coldplay - Sparks
- Coconut Records - West Coast
- Two Door Cinema Club - Sleep Alone
- Pink Floyd - Summer '68
- Youth Lagoon - Montana
- Pink Floyd - Another Brick In The Wall (part 2)
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