Parks n Beaches

    Yesterday (Friday 6/19/15) was just one of those days that made me so glad to be alive. Ya know those days? Where you just do something or a bunch of things that make you feel so amazing, and so whole that you're absolutely invincible? I feel like those are the days I need the most. I'm one of those people who lets their problems get to them very easily, and it's so effortless for me to feel helpless and like nothing will ever go right ever again. Sometimes i'm the complete opposite, and I feel like there's not one single thing in the world that can stop me. The days where I feel like that make me so inspired and motivated to put my dreams and ideas into action. I would take that feeling over any other in the world any day.
   It was so gorgeous out yesterday. It was kinda cloudy in the beginning but it turned out to be perfect. Kyle and I went to a local arboretum a few towns over, actually the same place my parents got married back in '82 when my mom was 22 and my dad was just about 25. It's such a peaceful and open place. Maybe i'll even have my wedding there someday. We spread the blanket we bring pretty much everywhere with us under this huge tree that we laid under a couple of days ago as well. All we really need is each other to have a great time. We listen to the same music and have the same style; there's no better way to put it than that we just get each other. It's so remarkable and even liberating in a way to be able to lay down and just look at him. We don't even have to use words. We can just lay there in silence and still know how each other is feeling. I think that's what makes our relationship so incredibly special to me. One thing I especially love is how we take pictures of each other and write letters to each other and neither of us are afraid to show just how strong our love is, and how much it is constantly growing. Kinda shows how you don't have to be a certain age or be with that person for a specific amount of time before you know that you love them.
   Later that night we went to what most people around here would call Land's End or The Docks, but regardless of what you call it, it's really just a place to go when you either have nothing better to do or wanna do something stupid and not get caught, or honestly both. So, as most Friday nights usually end up, we went there. One of our lame inside jokes is calling each Friday a "Big Friday Night" (please don't ask why because I don't have a single clue) which is where the name of my car came from "Big Fry". We use my car to go just about everywhere and we spend so much time just hanging out in it. I think I like my car for that purpose more than the actual driving part.
   We laid down the same blanket as before on the little beach that's there and had our very own picnic for like 2 hours. We laughed so hard about so many things and made complete fools out of ourselves and i'm pretty sure the people who came and went around us thought there was something very wrong with us. I don't laugh harder with anyone else than I do with him. Sometimes we'll be acting like idiots and then pause for a second and look at each other and wonder why we're so strange. It's truthfully the greatest thing ever.
   Days like these just make me realize how much I actually have and how many breathtaking things are around me. When i'm outside and really, really think about it, I realize how small I am in comparison to this huge planet and it kind of puts me into perspective. When i'm surrounded by things so much bigger than myself it really sets in that I am just a tiny part of this world and all of my problems aren't forever. It grounds me a lot and brings me back down to earth after the times I feel like my life and even being alive is questionable. Nature and all of its elements truly do heal. If you're ever having a really shitty day or you feel like your world is falling apart, take it from someone who's felt the same way too many times to count and step outside. By yourself or with people who wont bring even an ounce of negativity into your environment. Travel and get out there, regardless of how near or far you're going. I promise it'll make all the difference.